Broken keyboards

it's been well over, um.. forever. I think if I really had to update this it would take me hours. So much has happened where do I begin. I might as well say sorry for waiting forevers, I "planned" to update this but it never happened, sad I know. Moving along. My b day, yay GO ME!!! ha I did nothing and got no cake, that is until later like a few weeks later, we made a trip to walmart at 3 in da morning and ate chocolate cake... I'll never forget having to return back to the store just cuz we forgot milk, lol. Management at mickey d's SUCKS!!! oh well i guess, in case you didn't know I don't work there anymore : ) I sundenly had tons of friends, went to the club every sunday, and hung out with friends, ha but then jose and erick hated me, all cuz of richard, that fag.. so yea, this is boring even me so I'll try to hurry and make it shorter. I went to mexico, got a reeeeaaaalllyyy big phone bill, thanks to you all know who, jk. Jose and Erick don't hate me... but we all never hang now cuz those losers are in school. Micheal and I are dating now..... that's a cute story because ' it's diffrent with us' or ' we are in a diffrent situation'
( wink wink ) lol.. that's funny. Allison seems to always mix up micheal for erick. oh and so did Abby, oopps. okies that's all i can remember for nows, soooo laters.

ps. oh I alomost forgot, Micheal's lil sis is here now and she is super cute, I likes her.
oh, and i also wanna thank mikey for ruining my pumpkin... thanks

Wihlitpfm

It has been a while since I have last updated so have a few things to add but not much... work, getting darker, walking around the carnival a million times ( ok it was more like 8 times), talking on the phone, and wishing my room was clean.
yup that was about it..... maybe that is why I have not done anyting, because I'm always busy and really tired. the past few days I fell asleep around 4 or something and then wake up close to midnight. Then lie awake till about 5 then go to work.. shitty huh.
Moving along I decided to make a little thingy or wihltpfm... that means
" What I have learned in the past few months" suweet huh
so here goes.
- My dad really hates butters, to think of it my dad really hates me too.
-What a paralax is, and what it does
-I'm getting fatter from so much McDonalds
-I turn my friends evil... or is it the other way around?
-my sister likes to take advantage of people.
-The Tipping point is a great band
-The triangle trade.
-That my mom usually means what she says, lol.
-Chain letters suck... yet I still send them
-What ethnocentrism means
-I'm secretly rich, well in my mind.
-What mollases is used for
-The D diminishing triad
-People are mean and they tend to suck.... oh and they are great at back stabbing
-I'm kinkier than Micheal
-I know what hot icecream feels like... it seems impossible but it burns
-Ericks parents hate me, as well as his other friends that just so happen to be girls.
-Things will fade in the sun
-Some dude likes me
-I'm lucky
-What the Univac was
- Jose loves me
-I've had a stress attack thingy
-I miss butters
-Tanning oil WILL leak from the bottle
-Ha what assymtopes are... thats funny i remember
- Erick's blogs are usually really always about me.. ok they are Always
-I get happy way to fast
-OOO I know who Venevar Bush... and that I feel sorry his mommy named him that.
-Alot more people hate me than I think.. yup and for no apparent reason, that I know of at least.
-My phone is my life.
-I have tons of photo albums but no photos.
-Erick prefers me over a jacket.
-I can't spell alphabet, and i get made fun of cuz of it, lol.
-I wish Jennifer was still here
- That I need a body guard cuz people like to stalk.
-Some will never change.
- I like someone who doesn't even notice me, or I don't think they do.
-I can't stay home for longer than a day
-I'm a bitch.
- If I could build a time machine and go back in time, I would not change anything, well maybe the April fools thing I did to Jose..... I would have made it funnier, well to me at least.... ahh still brings a tear of joy to my eye when I think about it.. haha
- Life tends to go on....
I think that is it for now, cuz now me and Jose are gonna help his mommy make tamales, mmmm..

Screw driver and Knife needed

Hello all, gee I'm really tired. I attemped to sleep yesterday, didn't work. I'm pretty sad too. My dad made give my cat away, it's because we have the baby ( one of the twins hazel had ) and the cat cannot be near. I kinda miss him but it hasn't really hit me yet. Work is really long and boring, and customers are retarded. why can't they go to Burger King??
Moving along, that whole thing with Kevin was a spin, like most things in life. Turns out he said he never did have a chance with me, which is true but i didn't let him know that. My parents hate him with a passion, and everyone hates him, and he hates all my friends. I didn't think i would go out with him, that's why I told him I was with Erick, oh and Kevin wants to Kick Ericks ass now cuz he was my 'boyfriend' ya he's odd. So this whore Megan who liked Jose and lead him on totally told me she didn't like him even though he told her she should be a cheerleader cuz ahe had the looks for it....is he blind and is she blonde enough to know that it is a gay and not to mention cheesy pick up line?? Yea she is. So we went to the club two sundays ago and she totally told me she did not see anything in him. The next night she was texting me and told me she liked him and that she was hanging with him at that moment that she was talking to me. Jacked. I don't care that he is with someone, it's that he is with my friend and that she knew what had happened between us. So now she is dating him and thinks I have no idea. She no longer talks to Jose because he told her that he told Kevin that she was easy and that was the only reason why he was with her, kinda funny huh. So now she tries to be my friend and act like nothing ever happened, maybe because told her that if i found out that she "back stabbed" me like that I would do witch craft on her, or that I would get my mother to, since she knows my mom is like that... I personally though it was great. I kinda got screwed over but it didn't come as a big surprise, maybe cuz I'm used to it from him. Mike you were right you will be who you have always been. Besides, i have a ton of stuff to think about that does so not involve him. Crazy thing is that I have not spoken to him in over two weeks and he still calls and texts me asking me what I'm doing and if I'm mad at him... DUH!! He even had his mom call me, cuz he knows I love her to death, too bad I ignored that call.
On another note, Erick's mom hates me now i think. It's because we spend too much time together, and he hardly spends time with the family. Sorry, but that bothers me, i called yesterday, me and Erick were going to go out, she answers and says he's not going, so I was like ok, well can I talk to him?, so then she says ok, then hangs up. Nice huh. Nothing I can't get over.
I was 100 dollars short on my drawer at work today, I think the manager counted the money wrong, she did a skim, and came up with 930 dollars, yet she only took my hundreds, my fifties and the twenties, she said she was gonna count it again so I better call soon to see if she found the money yet, or i get written up..... big whoop.
Laters

hijole!!!

AHHH gee I've been way too lazy to write, oh and especially now that our computer is brokened, ha is the even a word?? well it is now. WEll you all better congradulate me cuz I graduated.... ok and now it is over..... soon, oh well so movin along nothing that new oh wait there is but i choose to leave you in suspence, dun duh daaaa!!!
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Pattymay sue man

Temp.... what?

Hola, another day of crazy weather that I like but at the same time hate. So much to inform ya'll of. Oh my did I just say ya'll, oh yea I did. He he.. My mom is now crazier than ever. I have made the decision to move out, and soon so by the end of month, I will be flying solo... just don't know with who yet. I recently talked to Kevin.. ah, a lost cause. He broke up with his girlfriend that was his fiance' ya... So now he wants to talk, and hang out. He thinks I'm with erick, maybe beause I told him I was. See my whole thing was that I would say I was with someone so he will not try to ask me back out again. Ha so me and Erick are together now, but for fav faves. lol I actually feel really bad for Kevin despite all the things that have happened between us, his gf decided to inform him that she actually did not , and thought that getting married was a bad idea. So now he has lost everything, including his money that was in his joined account. Sad thing is that he keeps mentioning how I was right for him and that he regrets all the things he did, like breaking up with me. Then I recive this text this morning... he says that he is falling for me, as in liking me again, and he feels bad about it because I'm "with" someone. In reality, I don't know if I could ever go back to him. Do you think it is possible for someone to change due to their past experiences??? I think it is possible.... Eventhough I still have feelings for him, I don't want to fall flat on my face again. Since he is the only one I have ever loved, there is that little something that I wish would go away. I'm so confused. I feel that if I do go back to him, everything I have planned will be all jacked, but mostly I'm afraid of the whole " I told you so" thing from everyone. Oh and that My family would be against it.... Hallo!!! AM I a rebound?? I don't think so cuz I'm "with" someone and technically we can't get back together untill I'm single.
Besides all that crap.. I'm not so sure what is on my mind besides school. which is hard and mind shredding. Okies well that is all for now.. cuz I'm currently fighting with Erick on IM. ah that sucks. outties

La La La

Ha, well it has been a long time since I have been on, mostly because I had to so all kinds of crap... SO now I am back. OHHHH, I had tons of fun at Prom. I finally chose Erick to go with me, at first he couldn't go cuz his parents were being really mean. But then in the end, he was all mine for the whole night. Jose went to Texas for his Brothers wedding, I have to say I did miss him alot while he was gone. On Prom day I had to go to work, but they called in and wanted me to go in sooner so I could get out sooner, so I got out at 4:00, then went home and got ready. Ah, Erick you looked SOO hot, I must give you props, thanks to me of course, lol. Our night was good, we ate, then we went to prom, about a hour late, I blame those who love to take embarising pictures. We danced all night and took adorable pictures. We went to our house got dressed and went to After Prom, it was fun, but not as fun. We went to Erick's place at 4:30 in the morrning and then I stayed there till I had to go to work at 7:00. Which really sucked. I started falling asleep on Erick's bed then kept waking up. Everything was fine until I stared feeling it after a few hours. Ah that was a bad experience, but I lived aparently.
This week so far has been a real drag, life sucks, most of the time. Good news is that I am a new aunt, again. TWINS yay, and they are so adorable, I love it. Jose came back. Good news, except he is hiding something from me, and I think I know what it is. He thinks he is being repalced by Erick. I don't think so. but me and Erick have really bonded and have spent alot, and I mean alot of time together since he left, and it has drawn us closer. Jose now also thinks that there is something between me and Erick once again, no, at least I don't think so. Unless Erick wants to inform me of something, lol.
uh.. My mom on the other hand, had gone what seems like postal. She is on another one of her crazes and now wants me out of the house at the end of may...... ya ok. SO untill then I will have to figure something out, just incase she does decide to go along with her plans of making me leave.
I met this Italian boy, he is so cool, not to mention cute, lol. His name is Matteo. So I shall say, buen binutto. I think that is how you spell it, who knows, whatever. Ha, so it is off to class now, and to learn about Edgar Allen Poe, eventhough I feel like I know enough about him already.. oh well, So I am off.......

Slumbery Agitation

I want to complain about how I can't sleep. It's not so much that I can't sleep but finding time to do so. So much has happened in a few days. I shall fill you in.....
Friday I went to a BBQ with Erick, it was fun. I have never ate so many huge cookies and rootbeer floats in one sitting, lol. Well apperently now people think we are together, ha that's funny. I love Erick to Death but we already went through that lil fase and now it's over, it's been over and Unlike jesus, It will not come back from the grave, at least not to my knowlege.
Saturday, another BBQ but my family, and as usual, they presume we are together, Why don't they think stuff like that with Jose?? Oh yea, cuz they all know I don't like him like that. My cousin was presenting Erick, and asked if he was "just" a friend, uh yeah.. Thats' how it starts, he says. Ok. But before we went to the BBQ I had gone to work, joy. Ahh, and then when me and Erick left, we saw Kevin. God I despise him somethimes. My heart felt like it was going to fall out and go into cardiac arrest. Crazy how you can feel like that just by seeing some one. As much as I try to deny it, I can't forget what we have been through, and undoubtibly, I will always have feeling for him, they may not be the same as they once were, but hey, hatred is a feeling, lol Moving on...
Sunday, I was really tired, like all day, I didn't go to sleep untill alot later than i had expected, I was talking to Jose all night. Have you ever heard news from someone that just for some reason makes the rest of your day, in my case night, feel like crap. Ya thats what happened to me. It feel like a sort of deception.. But ya know what, It's ok, it's not like that person was, ok wait that is not going to make sense, so I might as well not say it..lol.
Maybe because it was a busy weekend, is why I had like no sleep. I have made the decision to not accept restricted calls. It may sound weird, but there had been this guy who calls in the middle of the night, asking me what underwear I'm wearing, and it's really freaking me out!! Ya one day he called out of the blue like at 2 in the morning, and He admitted he had the wrong number, but he still calls. Can you say PSHYCO!!
Also, this whole prom thing, I asked Erick, he's my boy and I know I would have tons of fun with him. Not a problem. Untill yesterday, ( sigh) his parents may not let him go, which sucks. So maybe that is why I have been all weireded out lately. Ahh, and not to mention that I did not get Prom weekend like I though I would, so I have to work from 10 to 6 on saturday, go to Prom, from 9 to 12, I want to go to after prom, which is from 12 to 4 in the morning, then, I have to work from 7 to 3 on sunday. So I'll will most likley be running on caffine and sugary products to keep awake, lol.
I have to take these 2 huge test for the BYU thing, which I have not studied for, which is way bad... I'm getting a little stressed over everything that is happening, but it's not that big. My goal is to take them tomorrow, and hopefully pass.
Jose left yesterday to Texas for his brothers wedding. So before he left we all watched house of daggars, and YES i did cry in the end, it was soooo sad, he came back for her... aww I hate movies that are so sweet and romantic and make dorks like me cry. But later on as I was leaving, Jose got really sad, and he got all teary, which made me sad. He made it seem like he was never ever going to see me again. Wow he really does have strong and pshycotic feelings for me. Lol. Well I gotta go now, off to a great day in school, watching a movie and eating sushi.
laters