Saturday mornin

SONG OF THE DAY: Liz Pher-- Why can't I IT's early and I'm gonna go to lincon park and go to Oktober fest. Should be fun i hear. So I'll be there at 11 ish and then I'm gonna go to boulder for cu band day. I guess there is some kind of fait thing in boulder today to, dunno if I'll go I like fairs. I went to the credit union to withdrawl mone;y and i frekin waited for ever from 9 45 to 10 08 damn it was crap. But now i gots mula!! ok well just thought I would let yall know so if you wanna come on down.... Adios

Faint purple line

SONG OF THE DAY: Mario Vasquez -- Gallery It's like two in the morning and I’m using the lab top so I’ll most likely post this tomorrow. I didn’t go to school today. I guess I was too tired or at least that is the excuse I feel like giving. I took a test this morning…. most of you know how it went. I was on my way to go to have lunch with my sis then I hear on 99.9 that they are buffalo wild wings giving away cd’s and Flogging Molly tickets. I stopped by and scored tickets this Tuesday and the Blue October cd. I’m actually listening to the cd right now. I guess my morning started ok. So Arizbe and I go to cazadores to eat lunch, we talked about a lot of things. In a way I get why she tries to stay so distant from my parents, I think she may understand the reason I do the same. I felt like we were all close, I guess we are but lately it’s been so different a lot of things in our lives have seemed to drift us apart. I missed being able to tell her everything like how I used to. Went to work, today was payday. Yay I get paid and then watch it all go within 3 days of receiving it. Happens every month and now its’ worse cuz of that hospital bill. It’s life. Anyways it was really busy today, since it has been dead all week they all come on a Friday. Oh I went to youth group. That was interesting, Maybe it would be best if I keep all my thoughts to myself. OOOO hate me is on, I love that song. It makes a lot of sense if your life sucks, and mine does, or has been lately, lol. As I was saying…. I tend to question a lot of things and when you don’t have a good enough answer to back up your beliefs I don’t see the point of preaching it to others. I have fun though. Rob is one to actually go into it with me but his wife Cassandra gets all touchy and says “ If you know it’s bad it’s your guilty conscious telling you that you sinned so ask god for forgiveness because you didn’t follow the bible ” yet she disobeyed it too, somehow there is a lil loop hole just for her cuz she “knew it was wrong”. That is ok, I can’t judge anyone for their beliefs… I guess.
We talked about enemies and stuff. I don’t get how people try so hard to ruin another persons’ life, basically just cuz theirs sucks, lol. But really, I know what you’re doing and so does GOD!!! Ha aha. I think what is best for me is to just ignore everything that bothers me.. things that are negative and just let things be, they will all fall in place, I’m a true believer that everything happens for a reason, even unexpected things.
I looked up at the stars when I got home and all I could think about were old memories and how much my life and things have changed so much. It makes me kinda sad. Just a year ago the stars meant everything, everything. I’ve grown and learned to know not to believe in anything with such passion anymore.
As or yesterday I have chosen to stay from someone for a really long time…. Ah I just learned I can’t rely on things I once thought anymore. And with all this is going on right now, maybe this is best. I just don’t know what to do but distant myself at such a stressful time. What you said was hurtful and I really meant what I said, except for all the times I said I was sorry, cuz you know what…. I didn’t really mean it. And I know you didn’t either.
Tomorrow is Oktober fest, I dunno if I wanna go or if it would be fun. Also cu band day is mannana too and I wanna see central march, but it would be a really long day and I don’t know if I’m up to it yet. We’ll see in the morning. I’m gonna get some juice and then try to go to sleep which I’ve been having a hard time lately. Well till the sun rises once again. Oh and Micheal, I love you.
Nighty night.

What a slut

Ok ok there is this song that has brought much contreversy to me and my friends, that one hinder song, lips of an angel. So lets bring it out to the open shall we.. That biotch that keeps calling him all late is a hoe! lol but really and that dude is an ass for trying to be all secretive about it. So the song goes that she calls him all late and he is all whispering... my girls in the next room sometimes i wish it was you... guess we never really moved along. Um correction.. me and vange so belive that if he hasn't move on.. why the hell is he with his "gurl" hello? And this dumb slut who is trying to jack up their relationship is prolly eating every single word he is tellin her, so you think if he loved you he would break up with his chick for ya? sure he would. Funny thing is that when he is all done talking to this stalker he hangs up and goes and prolly gets laid by his Girlfriend. This is a really good song don't get me wrong, cuz i like it and all but if this is your song, jam or life story... You are a slut!... Sorry Erick

Moving on. I didn't go to comp class yesterday.. surprise there, lol. I got talked into going to the movies instead and watching fly boys.I knocked out cold last night at micheal's, didn't go home, then my mom was upset in the morning, oopps! oh well. MMMM I love watermelon! ( I'm eating some now ) I can't wait for halloween, we are gonna have party at my casa and I get to dress up for work... usually they wouldn't let us cuz it is a credit union. Oh and i went to the store and bought some cute lil scrapbooking stuff. I'm all excited, I'm a tard. lol. Earlier arizbe called and I guess we gonna go lunch tommorrow despite me being mad at her. Dunno if I should tell her that I know what she said to mom or debbie. I guess I'll have to think about it. Part of me wonders what she wants since she called me lol. it's mean i know. I'm gonna go mimi's soon cuz I have class in da morning.
Night

Track star

I'm here in the game room in school... Done with class and thought I would update, although there must be a sign that i shouldn'y cuz it took me forever to log on, some redirecting thingy.. dunno. I guess i should start with last week, sucked, lol. Damn my whole life sucks!!! stacy asked how my vida was, lets just say it's going in the crap hole. I haven't done much and that may be the problem, lol. my fault. Hmm last weekend I um um oh yeah went shopping and bought stuff from like every store and spent alota money i don't have, but who cares it made me feel great at the time. Oh and I went bowling, That was fun, but i could have sworn i was better before... who cares i still kicked jose's ass! Micheal and I stayed at the heritage inn on account of our "anniversary" ah lol. It was really cool it was the ceasars court thing and there was an awesome hot tub, that i wish i had in my casa ( ours is all jacked and is now in the corner of our back yard, just pretend it isn't there) YUP that was fun! there were all these huge marble pilars, uh i think they were plastic, those cheapos. The chili cheese fries were yummy, i know you wanna go again.
Had school all week, except for I haven't been going to my one night class, english comp.. kinda regret i actually have a night class. it's not hard, it's just hard to go to it after being at work then micheal's house then to have to leave again.. sux! But I will so go tonight no if ands or but.. s : )
I had like an effing breakdown moment, like hello, I'm so stressed. mostly school, not getting things done and then the test.. the hiddious tests, but i passes that is all that matters. Oh and things with my mommy are getting better, I love her sooooo much and i think I forget that somethimes, and maybe i put alot of things of, not just school but family. I don't know what the hell riz's problem is.. but she is being a bitch. long story short, she's mean, she is my big sis and is all jealous , sad huh. but her and mom are mad at each other i guess so she takes it out on me. I talked to regina last week, i feels real bad for her at times but then again you gotta learn from your mistakes. Life lesson for all. Jose is back he went to texas and came back a "man" he he , now he is an adult, the big 18. but he still didn't get the mexican cheese and mommy is pissed.. I know you know that thought i would just rub it in, cuz you know how i'm good at that. lol. I promise will go buy lotto tickets, the scratchy ones those are fun! went to see jackass 2 after work. funny funny stuff. Sad how we are entrtained by other peoples stupidity and pain. Took a long nap with micheal after eating chicken wings and pickles, sounds all sick, eww, I didn't eat them together but it was really good. Me and erick went to a chucky cheese cast party lame!!! then he hung with gabe and lori after he got off... without me, jerk face. But i got to see jose, and my second mommy. Ha I have like 7 mommies. they all love me, what can i say. Well i'm gonna go and eat with my love.. laters

ps. I'm working on this neat paper i'll have to post my draft of it some day it's way intresting and insightfull. ha what i write insightfull, hell ya!

pss. My mom got a tredmill, funny, it's all high tech. I likes.

Catch a shooting star

And put it in your pocket never let it fade away.... O likes that song, SOOO It is saturday noche and I am here with meche.. that is mercedes, mike's lil sister... she so cute. Ah and she even ran up to me on thursday here b-day and was all like... I love you. HOW SWEET!! K movin along, I noticed I forgot a few things last blog.. LIKE the yellowcard concert!! Man that soooo rocked, they were all great, I almost passed out from heat and I punched some guy in the face a few times, it was cute how after that micheal tried to protect me and was all apologizing to da guy, lol. He so deserved it! Um... I had alot more on my mind before i wrote this... oh weellss. Lets seee, like I have no idea what my home looks like anymore, or my mom, lol jk. but the past few days ( 3 ) I have been sleeping over at my baby's house, oh and we went to the rockies game last night, that was fun. Oh and I has LOTSA fun last night, wink wink... he he ha. Well the thingy was that we have kinda beens having a bit of some technical dificulties... then we decided a break would be good, so it happened then... Micheal realized how shitty life is without me, eventhough we still hung out like 24 / 7 the 2 days we were on this break.. lol. you knows you life shitty, jk I love you. So now things are just the way they were. I find it hard to belive how pathetic some people in this world can really be... Come on now and get a life.. or should I say continue with your own instead of being latched on to mine!!! OH and mind your own damn business and don't talk shit... cuz you will not get what you want... even if you lie about it. Sorry.
Ah my phone broke... yea It fell in the toilet at fernando's casa, and let me assure you it was clean when it did thanks god cuz if not I would have not gotten it. but it worked for a bit so if you got a call from me and then never heard from me again, don't worry I'm still alive. I know snack was worried lol. School is great actually I got an a on my math test already Yay! They are good classes and the teachers like me, so it all gravys. (sighs) I'm gonna get off now so I can go cuddle with my honey now, Hasta la vista.