Careful what you wish for?

Hey amigos!

Its that time of say when I get to stay late at work and hove nothing to do so I get to update!!! yay!!!! I worked late last night too but I had soooo much to get done, but I'm all caught up today and I must say all is mostly well. I'm training another newbie so it's cool.

I have been so odd the past few weeks accordin to my resources, but I will get to that a bit later, first I want to fill you in on all my cool adventures!!

A couple weeks ago we went to the corn maze and that was super fun, it was just so cold and we left when it began to drizzle and tonight we are going again, tonight it is going to be ahunted so it should be lotsa fun, Erick is for sure going and I'm not all sure who is, we'll see.
We also took a trip to the scare fair, the one by saint michaels. Then there was this play called Maranda's nightmare and it was so good, it was a halloween dance play. I though it was really creative and one of my co workers was in it and she did awesome :) Ok those were ok and 2 were really really lame, Micheal, John, Erick and I went and that was cool I just kept getting scared, I'm such a weenie. Last friday we took a trip to Eliches to go in the ahunted houses there, I must say I loved getting scared, those were sooo amazing and the second would have to best ever! fun fun! Then Our halloween party was on saturday. I had a great time for the most part, although my co-host would dissagree. Whatever, It was great and that is all that matters, well except for the cleaning when you are super tired part.

Ok so recently my life has been so outta wack. I have no idea why either. I have so many mixed emotions. What I think I want, in reality is really not what I want at all. Like I do and I don't, ahh so aggrivating to argue with myself over all of this. My heart is so different than my head. I'm confused, I'm in like, I'm in hate and frusteration. I'm tired, of all of it. Truely and honestly, I don't know if I want to make it work anymore. I'm so unsure right now that anything I say is most likely wrong. I'm not happy and I really don't know what will make me happy. At this point I feel like anything changing is far too drastic for me to take in all at once. It's not fair to you or me. I know this prolly makes no sense or maybe it does, I have to say it all cuz I feel like I can't say it all to you, eventhough you are my best friend. I can't take advice from anyone. they are so bias. screw it maybe I wanna be selfish and you are just along for the ride. I dunno. I just need time, hopefully. I'm done, with letting out my feelins, I even started gettin confused.. I would delete this but maybe it is good for you to hear. My only form to express myself to you at this time. I guess this would be the time to break into tune with the cheap trick song. come on it only seems appropriate, lol.

On a happier note, I get off in 30 min! Tomorrow is halloween, at work we are to all come in as a department and so something really cool. my department sucks and there are only 3 people participating in the deopartment theme. yeah that is ok cuz only the cool people dress up anyways. We are to be goths, ha ha this should be amusing. I will let you know how it all goes d0wn. Wish me luck and fortune, especially luck so I don't fall off my 6 inch star platforms and break something!

Happy Halloween!!!